Dear bloggy,
It has been ages since I posted anything.
Simply because I am going through so much currently.
At work. Personal life.
It's like everything that can go wrong, goes wrong.
And the only thought I have in mind is that it is my fault.
Why?
I have forgotten about Him.
I do pray, I do all the things that I thought I could do for Him.
But I think that my heart is just not into it. It is like I am going through the motions, the bare minimum and well, failing miserably.
I had just changed job, trying my best to adapt to the new job, new culture, and I was very sick. The sickest I had been since I started working. & then I was faced with one major challenge in my life. That challenge broke me.
I tried my best. Really tried my best. But everything was just mentally draining and very stressful fo me.
However, in those seeming darkest moments, I just had to sit myself down and ask myself seriously whether is this the path I should continue pursuing.
My plans when I changed job was simply to work here for the next 4-5 years, until after I get my house before I quit. During the period I am working, I would be saving for my wedding, my house and for my businesses. After life is more stable, I wanted to reach for my dreams. I wanted to pursue further studies in Early Childhood to empower me with knowledge in teaching my future children and also to strengthen my credentials for my business. My plans were to be a SAHW/M as I believe in having more free time to be the best housewife for my future husband. I wanted a life that is balanced between work/social and Akhirah lifestyle. I want that for my future family.
I want to see my family in Jannah.
But now, I am too stressed. With work.
And I don't think this job can work out for me anymore.
I had been having problems with my superior, with my SOP and I am too stressed and tired to keep holding on, Heck it. This is the only job where I stayed back so late without any OT.
So I am calling it quits.
The bosses have extended my probation and will give me a verdict, probably next week.
It's cool.
Really. 'Cos I have been given an offer.
And it's aligned with my plans above. Even more so, it actually will bring forward my plans earlier.
Just that, money-wise, it will be a constraint.
But Allah s.w.t. will guide me.
I know.
So here it is, my plans:
- Work in this new job.
- Get my qualifications.
- Expand on my delivery business.
- Start on two other businesses with my two friends (child-minding and muslimah clothing).
- Continuously saving money.
- Spend only on necessities.
- Continue with my passion of helping others in health through Muslim with Muscles - SG.
- Once my businesses are stable, to do them full-time.
- Assist my future husband to achieve his dreams too.
Insha Allah, things will become better. Allah s.w.t. has promised so.
Yes, my darkest times for now is over, but there will be more.
So for those who are also in a similar situation, it's probably time to sit down and ask yourself whether is this where we should continue to be, or isit time to make a change?
Only you can answer that.
I want to see my family in Jannah.
But now, I am too stressed. With work.
And I don't think this job can work out for me anymore.
I had been having problems with my superior, with my SOP and I am too stressed and tired to keep holding on, Heck it. This is the only job where I stayed back so late without any OT.
So I am calling it quits.
The bosses have extended my probation and will give me a verdict, probably next week.
It's cool.
Really. 'Cos I have been given an offer.
And it's aligned with my plans above. Even more so, it actually will bring forward my plans earlier.
Just that, money-wise, it will be a constraint.
But Allah s.w.t. will guide me.
I know.
So here it is, my plans:
- Work in this new job.
- Get my qualifications.
- Expand on my delivery business.
- Start on two other businesses with my two friends (child-minding and muslimah clothing).
- Continuously saving money.
- Spend only on necessities.
- Continue with my passion of helping others in health through Muslim with Muscles - SG.
- Once my businesses are stable, to do them full-time.
- Assist my future husband to achieve his dreams too.
Insha Allah, things will become better. Allah s.w.t. has promised so.
Yes, my darkest times for now is over, but there will be more.
So for those who are also in a similar situation, it's probably time to sit down and ask yourself whether is this where we should continue to be, or isit time to make a change?
Only you can answer that.
