Restarting Once Again

Dear bloggy,

I didn't realise how long I have not posted, and damn has it been ages... and a waste.. and I actually had several drafts which I didn't update and publish.. LOL!

There is a lot I could have posted but I didn't..

And it has been more than 2 years since I last posted..

So, updates are upcoming and it will be as brief and I won't check 'cos I am a procrastinator...

1. I am a Mrs now!
2. I am going to 2 years in a job that I love, albeit the numerous tasks I have are recently making me stressed.. (I will go more into detail later..)
3. I will be getting my hommmeee in about.. a month? =)))
4. My courier business is picking up so, Alhamdulillah!

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On 06/08/16, we solemnized our marriage and had the wedding reception in a humble affair at the MPH and void deck for my side, and at the multi-purpose hall for his side..

I was glad and grateful that our wedding went smoothly with the careful planning and allocating of tasks to reliable and responsible Maid-Of-Honour plus bridesmaids and Bestman with the groomsmen. I LOVE LOVE LOVE how my MOH, which is my close friend kept me updated and reassured that all is going smoothly, Alhamdulillah.. (Of course, she is OCD, so she has to make it as perfect as she can.. heh!) And really, my family were awesome.. they tirelessly helped me out and calmed me down when I was on the verge of becoming a bridezilla ('cos I was overthinking too much..)

So before anyone asked me which wedding vendors I engaged.. wait hor... it's coming!

1. Wedding Catering and Deco (full package inclusive of DJ): Cahaya Nanie Wedding Services (hers) and aisey.. i forgot the catering name, 'cos it's his SIL's uncle's company.. and Nizera Wedding Services (his deco)

2. Bridal: Sanggar Mustika Bridal (of course with Kak Andi, Abg Riyan and Sis Riya as my MUA on that day..)

Oh.. but, but.. I also engaged a freelance MUA, Sis Nurwaty Yazid for my nikah make-up as my wedding was over the weekend..

3. Henna: Personal Friend

4. Kompang: Akrab Kompang Services ('cos he insists that he only wants this, and also 'cos my SIL sponsored this. HEH)

5. Car: Rented from.. I dunnoe eh.. I only know it is there.. 'cos he decided on this.. =P)

6. Photography: Sanbyoshi, taken by Farnsharkieboy and Helmi Mokish (hmm.. 'cos its his own cuzzin and he works with the bridal, so... I was more than happy to engage the,.. 'cos to me lah, it's better when Bridal and Photographer have worked together so there would be lesser risks of miscommunication.. YougetwhatImean?

7. Wedding doorgifts: Butter cookies bought from Radha Exports (Order must be more than $1000 worth before they took my order..so you imagine lah the number of boxes I had left at the end of my majlis.. LOL) and sent direct to the MPH, 'cos I very the malas to put them at my place 'cos the MPH is opposite my home and need to cross the road to get to it... You know, more hassle for me??

Hmm.. Did I miss anything out? If I have, do beep me alright?

And.. now, some might ask, what about the dulang items. etc2!

1. Rings: Taka Jewellery (hers) and Meyson Jewellery (his)
2. Shoes: Laces by Nanie (hers) and shitIforgotthebrand for his.. but we bought it at a John Little Warehouse Sale
3. Clothes: Hana (hers) and Takashimaya (his)
4. Her Bag: Guess bag (bought by in-laws from Aus)
5. His Wallet and Belt: Bought separately

And I cannot remember the other item.. LOL.. but I had cakes, fruits, hamper.. (the usual add-on dulangs.. HEH)

Anyway, dulangs on my side was made by my MOH and bridesmaids and me, simple yet elegant.. =)) while his dulangs were made by SIL. =)

As you can see, my wedding was a collective effort, family and friends pitched in, which helped in reducing my costs, which I really appreciate, 'cos when I planned for this wedding, it would be to have a clean slate when we get married, ie: no loans, no money owed, etc.. and Alhamdulillah, I got my dream wedding and achieved my end goal..

For those thinking, what about my honeymoon?
I went for a well-deserved trip to Batam for 5 days. BATAM only? Well.. 'cos, I was only able to take those few days off as I was still studying.. Waiiit.. WHAT?

Studying?

Yeah.. I was.. so.. on to my next update:

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My new work.

I am a diploma certified Early Childhood Educator, aka Preschool Teacher. HEH!

So, remember about me quitting my job(s)? in previous posts?

Yeah.

I firstly quit my job as an admin assistant back in March 2015. Took up a job in MOHH as an admin executive for just 6 months before the stress of the work and some personal issue made me quit in Oct 2015.

I then took up the job offer as an infantcarer PLUS, the opportunity to take up Diploma in Early Childhood (Childcare).

So, it happened the whole of 2016 which, clashes with my wedding.. and 'cos I can't be absent with the reason I got married (LOL!) I just took a short honeymoon trip.. with the hopes of going for a further trip in the future.. (Which hasn't happened yet..)

And as of 2017, I was transferred and became the proud teacher of 11 5 year olds.

It was a struggle 'cos I am to grad in 2017 but I had to juggle with having my own class to teach.. but Alhamdulillah.. it is going good, I guess.. heh..

I will update more about work, when I have the time, ya..

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Next.. to the 3rd update..

We have gotten the email that our house is completed and we will be able to get the key by November 2017! WOOHOO!

So, well.. me and hubs are busy with... reno plans etc!

I will also further update about our reno journey alright.. heh..

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I know, most do not know about it, but me and bro started up a courier business back in 2013.. and currently it has finally picked up 'cos I managed to get one admin to handle all enquiries and jobs.. so Insha'Allah it will be registered soon with some major changes in the works..

Pray for me, ya.. I need it.. to stay balance.. =)

That is all, for now..

'cos I need to settle some major errands..

Till then,
Diana *twinkles signing out..

Life Goals

Dear bloggy,

It has been ages since I posted anything.

Simply because I am going through so much currently.

At work. Personal life.

It's like everything that can go wrong, goes wrong.

And the only thought I have in mind is that it is my fault.

Why? 

I have forgotten about Him.

I do pray, I do all the things that I thought I could do for Him.

But I think that my heart is just not into it. It is like I am going through the motions, the bare minimum and well, failing miserably.

I had just changed job, trying my best to adapt to the new job, new culture, and I was very sick. The sickest I had been since I started working. & then I was faced with one major challenge in my life. That challenge broke me. 

I tried my best. Really tried my best. But everything was just mentally draining and very stressful fo me. 

However, in those seeming darkest moments, I just had to sit myself down and ask myself seriously whether is this the path I should continue pursuing.

My plans when I changed job was simply to work here for the next 4-5 years, until after I get my house before I quit. During the period I am working, I would be saving for my wedding, my house and for my businesses. After life is more stable, I wanted to reach for my dreams. I wanted to pursue further studies in Early Childhood to empower me with knowledge in teaching my future children and also to strengthen my credentials for my business. My plans were to be a SAHW/M as I believe in having more free time to be the best housewife for my future husband. I wanted a life that is balanced between work/social and Akhirah lifestyle. I want that for my future family.

I want to see my family in Jannah.


But now, I am too stressed. With work.

And I don't think this job can work out for me anymore.

I had been having problems with my superior, with my SOP and I am too stressed and tired to keep holding on, Heck it. This is the only job where I stayed back so late without any OT.

So I am calling it quits.

The bosses have extended my probation and will give me a verdict, probably next week.

It's cool.

Really. 'Cos I have been given an offer.

And it's aligned with my plans above. Even more so, it actually will bring forward my plans earlier.

Just that, money-wise, it will be a constraint.

But Allah s.w.t. will guide me.

I know.


So here it is, my plans:

- Work in this new job.
- Get my qualifications.
- Expand on my delivery business.
- Start on two other businesses with my two friends (child-minding and muslimah clothing).
- Continuously saving money.
- Spend only on necessities.
- Continue with my passion of helping others in health through Muslim with Muscles - SG.
- Once my businesses are stable, to do them full-time.
- Assist my future husband to achieve his dreams too.


Insha Allah, things will become better. Allah s.w.t. has promised so.

Yes, my darkest times for now is over, but there will be more.

So for those who are also in a similar situation, it's probably time to sit down and ask yourself whether is this where we should continue to be, or isit time to make a change?

Only you can answer that.

Starting on Something New!

It still feels so surreal to see my name on my resignation letter. 'Cos at my current workplace, I had actually envisioned being here until I am married with kids.

But recent happenings have made me decide otherwise.

It has affected me till the point that my loved ones are being affected by it too.

I was so stressed that I had insomnia, became an emotional eater, easily worked up and lost my temper often.

I became like that 'cos I felt so victimised at work. I felt like I was treated unfairly and judged constantly. It does not help when I feel so worthless eventhough I know what I do is the best that I can and that no one might be able to do as best as I did.

Yes, it does feel like being in an abusive relationship. But apart from the emotions intertwine in this relationship, it includes the fact that I felt so dependent on my job for the money. Simply, I kinda developed Stockholm Syndrome.

It was only after I confided with a few friends and also my family when I decided to get my act together and find a new job.

My motivation?

My wedding.

With my planned wedding date looming nearer and minimal savings to speak of, I am subconsciously panicking as each months passes.

Also, with my house in the making, that is also one other huge factor which finally made me decide that a new job with more benefits and a better salary would be the best solution.

It was not easy trying to find a job while still doing my current job with my bazillion tasks, but I managed to send out resumes to quite a couple of companies through JobStreet, JobCentral and Careers@GOV portal.

Alhamdulillah, I did get some response, however, the clinch deal was when I got recommended by future sis-in-law to try out at her company.

I got myself an interview slot, got interviewed (in which I was #FiftyShadesofGreenwithNervousness, 'cos the last time I was in an interview was 4 years ago.) and was convinced I had lost the opportunity to get this job!

But after 2 weeks of nerve-wrecking wait, I got THE CALL!

I was so happy that I just went and did sujud syukur!

What made me so happy was of the benefits which I sorely needed. The pay was not as much as I had expected but it was better, much better than what I am getting currently, so all in all, it is a blessing. ;)

So yes, with the signing of the Letter of Employment, I tendered.

I knew it would be a shock amongst my colleagues 'cos all of them thought that I was okay and that I would stay in this job forever and ever - NOT! Also 'cos they know that with me going, it would be a bigger headache to complete all my tasks. So, like I have said to myself a few times, 'Do not worry about your tasks anymore. It is not your problem anymore. You have done your part and so, it is your right to leave.'

Insha Allah this new job will bring more blessings and less headache, ameen!